The thought of leaving deeply saddens me…I have options to stay but it’s a very difficult route but if I really try, I know I can do it. I have the support from my parents and I now need the support from him. but I don’t know how to break the story to him because just the thought of it, I start to cry.
I know I have to do it really soon, I have to find the will to tell..it’s gotta be tonight, i really can’t keep this to myself anymore. Every time I think about it, I just burst into tears. It could be an end to us or it can be another milestone in my life. I really want this to work out at least until both of us get bored or hate each other cos now I really enjoy being together and I want to have more time to make him happy and just by looking at him my heart tells me I really love this guy, I do..I do love so much.
It doesn’t matter if we don’t have a future together but why will I make myself sad by leaving if I know I can be happy by staying here now. And I can always go back if I want to..
Please god let me get this one.
